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currently at the moment i feel very sad.
i dont know why.
no actually i do.
im really very sad, and sick.
i have a fever thats going @ 38.3 deg. now. i just took the temp.
and i feel empty.
i dont know why.
i feel alone.
i think i will feel lonely for the rest of my life.
and i dont know why.
i just do.

tsk, why so emo?
D: cheer up.
see.
only me cheering myself up.
how humiliating.
i feel hot, and nauseous.
but i dont care.
what matters is im alone now, i think.
somehow these are the real feelings i have deep down.
i just feel like turning time back,
o maybe turning time forward.
at least its all better than now.
the lonely, miserable, nauseous feeling of now.
and everytime my post can be so happy!
but this is just so different.
i hate the fact that things change.
happy, contented things change.
and that people change.
and people around me have all changed.
the surroundings have changed.
the language i actually understand now becomes some other language.
south arabian? greek? tamil?
i dont know.
what i think matters the most,
i think i have changed.
have i really changed?
i dont want to change.
i kow deep down inside im still me,
but people cant see that.
im still me,
but to them im not the same.
is that really true?
i dont think i have changed.
maybe people's views of me have changed.
from a nice view,
they have gotten sick of it.
like how ive gotten sick.
and the fact is they dont want me anymore in their lives.
and i think i have to accept it.

i think im cut off.
even though i seem to know everything,
i know nothing.
nothing at all.
even though i have everything,
they are just apparitions.
and the people i miss,
are just photo frames of my past memories that are hung up somewhere in my head.
they dont exist anymore.
i pray in my heart,
hoping the prayer is heard somewhere up there,
and hoping that someone up there would do something,
to bring my people back.
these people are important to me.
they have made my life what it is now,
and i thank them for that.
now bring them back.
please.
i beg you.
please.


OKAY HAHA THE ABOVE IS SOME QUESTION I FOUD ONLINE ABOUT "SICKNESS AND WRITE A SOLILOQUY ON IT!:D
wasnt it effective? :D
anyway, some of the feelings are rather true D:
but i really hope that i wont become that soulless person narrated there!
i hope im lucky enough to have people around me be the same,
:D HAPPY AND TOGETHER!:D
thats my wish for today.
and oh yeah, get well too.
dont be sick RACHEL!:D
be strong.

i hope i can study! i hope i will get well immediately!
i hope i can do all my homework.
i have a lot of hopes!:D

DONT WORRY, BE HAPPY!
TOMMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY!:D
dont feel sad!:D

okay i think probably my blog has been rather dead because there aint many tags to look forward to, and mostly i chat on other people's tagboards! so, my blog might probably die sometime!:O haiyo. dont let it die alright. jiayou you can do it.


LOVE:)
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