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OMG MY FAVOURITE COMIC BOOK DRAWN BY MY FAVOURITE FRIEND!:D ALTISBRE FTW!:D

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THIS PART I TYPE A LOT OF IMPT THINGS AND THEN SUDDENLY POST ITS ALL GONE DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
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i wrote something about i realise today was one of my most fun day with my family as i suddenly realise how warm our we all are, and its like we all reali enjoy ourselves, and seeing people see how happy we are tgt,seeing the real side of our family, how cool we are tgt, seeing people see the super hyper and funny real self of me that had been with me since young but surpressed inside bcos of a certain childhood incident, i feel totally relieved. from now on i shall try my best to be the my real natural self, and not keep quiet anymore, no matter the risk. bcos majorly everyone loves the real side of me :)
no that doesnt mean ive been fake the whole time, it just means i didnt give myself the freedom and release that self-consciousness for a very long time. so ive understood that.

then i mentioned that though its really abrupt, but i suddenly realised th importance of money and how ive started to see money as a means of survival and not mere paper anymore. that's an accomipishment!:D

ahhh everything has been short-cut bcos there's no more time and i couldnt type what ive intially typed before! okay, so since ive not blogged for a really long time and my blog (ohyeah i mentioned something abt my blog being a place to write down events and i feel happy bcos this blog is reali an achievement ever since i joined ny then ive kept this blog the longest :) okay so here's to type to various events:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HUILIN!<3

OKAY REALLY REALLY u'll get ur present on wednesday. promise. this person ah._. wher got ppl chase present one not paiseh ahahaha! but okay luh thats the unique huilin :) grow tall, eat healthy & stay strong!:D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHEA!:D

OHMYGOD OHMYGOD I JUST REALISE ITS 12AM NOW AND THAT MEANS IT HAS JUST TURNED 30TH AND I JUST TYPED THIS HAPPY BIRTHDAY MSSG TO ANTHEA AT THE EXACT TIMING OF THE DAY ITSELF! :OOOO I DIDNT PLAN IT SERIOUSLY! omg. :O
okay dont grow anymore (kidding luh haha), and stay strong & do what u think is the right thing to do okay!:)

AND THIS A MEMOIR:
27th of MAY 2009- nipple day xD

commemorated by sirong&me. happened while eating at e^&^% dunno-whats-its-name ice cream shop. the sickest thing to be oing while eating ice cream is to talk abt nipples><
OMG. scandalous HAHAHAAAA kay anyway I'LL TRY TO RMBR! :D


ah, my phone is like no bat now and i dont hav charger D: cant send happy birthday mssg now D: ugh. but i will make u see this. HAHAA

okay goodnight ppl.
i dont want BOF ot end!
and i feel accompished, i did my own BOF soundtrack audio cd and decorated the cover!:D
im falling in love with korean songs too ;D
so now basically i like lots of things and lots of languages! :D

ALRIGHT BIG PLAN GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
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heeeeeeeee. & we sent lerwoon off today cos she was feeling sick! D: GET WELL SOON LERWOON U LOW-IMMUNITY PERSON! 我代表jun pyo 叫你快点好起来okay!:D

then was napfa in the afternoon! anthea helped me ALOT with my sit&reach, bcos today was the first time i ever felt i could stretch without feeling pain. then eunice hahaha so cute cant bend! and sokboon was in a wheelchair D: and refused to leave sch say stay in sch can talk to us aww. as usual gerbera looks kinda short when she sits :X HAHAHAHA

the results were expected! for 5 years it has been the same. everything A. inclined pull-ups, A. sit-ups: A. standing broadjump: A. Shuttle-run A. everything A. EXCEPT FOR SIT&REACH. i got a D. like how i got last yr. like how i got last last yr. like how i got last last last yr. like how i got last last last last yr. ha. SILVER ONCE AGAIN CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU~ YOU ARE BORN IN THE ZOO~ but if anthea didnt help me i think it would hav been a fail.
BUT! there was something diff! i was only short of 2cm this time to A@@@@@ kay nvm as marie says: whatever pe is nothing. pass can already. HEHE:D i shall take heart to those words.

i suddenly feel quite aimless and not doing anything important D:
like how i really wanna get back some time to work on BIGPLAN. mayb the hols?

& BOYS OVER FLOWERS! HAHAHA that time go sirong's house was so fun! TLLY ROCKS watching it there!:D jun pyo lovers FTW!:D and though sirong doesnt agree with me : JIHOO TOO! :D and kim bum!:D <3 its been so long ive not gone hyper and happy and something to look forward to already, and BOF is really like something encouraging me from behind to work towards our bigplan, bcos i think maybe i can write a whole list of reasons why i wanna achieve bigplan. examples and i can state now are 1) JESLYN!:D 2) meet JUNPYO!

OKAY 再见亲爱的朋友们，我会尽量常常来BLOG地！:D
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(more motivation = more 33's hehhheh :D)

AIYA TODAY COUGH UNTIL VOMIT! TSK.
and the vomit is stil there! x.x SSSH!
hahahaaha:D
lerwoon was scared like mad, i can totally remb her panicking then running towards the classrm then shouting:
MRS KUAN! RACHEL VOMITTED~~~~~~!!!!!!!!

hahaha then anthea came out of the toilet, and i ran towards her, then she wanted to say, eh rachel my...came, then i said anthea i vomitted, then ran towards the toilet.HAHAHAA!:D we totally scared lerwoon ! XD SUPER FUNNY!

anyway today yunge gave me a 情书(as quoted from wendy) and i read until i cry; bcos it is really too touching alr. even hazel says: i read also feel like crying lor! im really emotional now luh. maybe i shall in one of my post type out her WHOLE letter that she wrote for me. DONT GO LEH! D: i buy you lots of sweets and 每个生日都买你蛋糕！我们一起再去找那个山上的OLDSCHOOL再去走到脚痛吧！

we are going out with yunge on SATURDAY! TO SING UNIL OUR HEARTS COME OUT FOR HER!:D

ANYWAY haiyo TOMR HAV TO HAND UP MATH FILE and i havent even file! DDD:
this is horrible, and to think i stil wanted to lian4 qing4 dian3. nvm, can lian4 during recess or something i guess!

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HEY PEEPS!:D
im not sad anymore! ive thought it through!:D
though im still sick hahaha:)

i realised that it doesnt matter how people look at me, the important thing is to be myself.
HAHA it sounds cliche doesnt it? but now ive finally understood the meaning of it!:D
YES RACHEL IS SMART!
see what matters is what you really are.
and to take things in your stride, to open your heart to accept things dont be so sensitive and petty!
you'll be a happier person!
even if you're lonely,
it doesnt matter, because you know there's someoe out there you can trust and is truly a friend.
:D

ive become optimistic in the hour!:D
and ive decided to get over everything in the future!
yes!:D

AND OMG I LOVE NEKO NO ONGAESHI!:D (the cat returns)
THE ANIME IS JUST SO NICE
and i love the theme song: KAZE NI NARU!^^ (means to BECOME THE WIND)
it is really so uplifting!:D
i watched it 3 times already! two times in the morning one during lunch
i love this line in the song:

君のためきなんて　春風に換えてやる！
IT MEANS : i'll change your sighs and make it the spring breeze!

i can understand this song:D
AND THEN when i read online about this movie,
i saw there's alot of people too who have watched it and loved it many times over! <3

THEN PEOPLE ARE SO SMART they can see parallels between [the cat returns] movie and [whisper of the heart] which i like UBER UBER LOTS TOO!:D =D yay!:D the reviews are very very very very smart.
there's parallels between the baron, reneldo/renaldo moon (muta), and the magical places and much more! omg this is really cool maybe i shouldnt quit alit. i think alit is cool. and it is really very interesting.

whisper of the heart made me LOVE violins and think violins are cool and make me want to learn how to play a violin.
the cat returns made me see cats in a different way (really!) and the previous me who hated cats like shit now think that they are kinda cool! KAKOII!:D

OKAY BE OPTIMISTIC.
AND SHOO FEVER!
AND REMEBER EVERYONE IS SPECIAL AND UNIQUE!
DONT LOOK DONT ON ANYONE ELSE OR BE JEALOUS OR ANYTHING!:D
ive realised the true meaning today.
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(and ive treasured bigplan and the person to do with it even more =D)
(right nylsej? xD)

HAHA PARDON. SKIP THIS PART IF YOU DONT WANNA READ IT.
SCROLL DOWN!:D

currently at the moment i feel very sad.
i dont know why.
no actually i do.
im really very sad, and sick.
i have a fever thats going @ 38.3 deg. now. i just took the temp.
and i feel empty.
i dont know why.
i feel alone.
i think i will feel lonely for the rest of my life.
and i dont know why.
i just do.

tsk, why so emo?
D: cheer up.
see.
only me cheering myself up.
how humiliating.
i feel hot, and nauseous.
but i dont care.
what matters is im alone now, i think.
somehow these are the real feelings i have deep down.
i just feel like turning time back,
o maybe turning time forward.
at least its all better than now.
the lonely, miserable, nauseous feeling of now.
and everytime my post can be so happy!
but this is just so different.
i hate the fact that things change.
happy, contented things change.
and that people change.
and people around me have all changed.
the surroundings have changed.
the language i actually understand now becomes some other language.
south arabian? greek? tamil?
i dont know.
what i think matters the most,
i think i have changed.
have i really changed?
i dont want to change.
i kow deep down inside im still me,
but people cant see that.
im still me,
but to them im not the same.
is that really true?
i dont think i have changed.
maybe people's views of me have changed.
from a nice view,
they have gotten sick of it.
like how ive gotten sick.
and the fact is they dont want me anymore in their lives.
and i think i have to accept it.

i think im cut off.
even though i seem to know everything,
i know nothing.
nothing at all.
even though i have everything,
they are just apparitions.
and the people i miss,
are just photo frames of my past memories that are hung up somewhere in my head.
they dont exist anymore.
i pray in my heart,
hoping the prayer is heard somewhere up there,
and hoping that someone up there would do something,
to bring my people back.
these people are important to me.
they have made my life what it is now,
and i thank them for that.
now bring them back.
please.
i beg you.
please.


OKAY HAHA THE ABOVE IS SOME QUESTION I FOUD ONLINE ABOUT "SICKNESS AND WRITE A SOLILOQUY ON IT!:D
wasnt it effective? :D
anyway, some of the feelings are rather true D:
but i really hope that i wont become that soulless person narrated there!
i hope im lucky enough to have people around me be the same,
:D HAPPY AND TOGETHER!:D
thats my wish for today.
and oh yeah, get well too.
dont be sick RACHEL!:D
be strong.

i hope i can study! i hope i will get well immediately!
i hope i can do all my homework.
i have a lot of hopes!:D

DONT WORRY, BE HAPPY!
TOMMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY!:D
dont feel sad!:D

okay i think probably my blog has been rather dead because there aint many tags to look forward to, and mostly i chat on other people's tagboards! so, my blog might probably die sometime!:O haiyo. dont let it die alright. jiayou you can do it.


LOVE:)
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